so new doctor time!
and my first appointment was yesterday.
I answered all their silly questions about family history (most of which i think i guessed on...because as it turns out, i don't know anything about my family at all!). Even on my OWN PERSONAL HISTORY. "So, you mention you see a cardiologist, what conditions do you have?" "Well, i don't remember the name of it but it has to do with like, something in my chest not working right and then a family history of something involving elevated levels of stuff i shouldn't have in my body."
"mmhmmm..." says the doctor lady. "well if you were taking this medication, then i'm assuming you had ::insert name of some problem::." "i think i've heard that before. i have that. yeah. that's the heart thing." (by the way, it's not, i later found out)
anyway, then she says, "and how about pap smears. are you regular on those??"
GET OUT OF TOWN. NO. STOP.
"let's do one right now!"
i dont think this woman has ever been told no before. she was so confused. her eyes screamed, "no? what? but the speculum is out already! and i just put on this glove!"
"no, we can skip that today. i'm not really interested in having that done."
"so...is that it?" i asked her.
and no. she took her glove off and asked me if she could "at least" do a breast exam.
like, oh man, if i can't et you to take your pants off can i puh leeeez unhook your bra! she actually did ask if she could unhook it for me. like, helping me out style i think. but nonetheless, no. i've been unhooking my bra since i was 12. yeah. TWELVE MOTHER FUCKERS. WHAT'S IT TO YOU.
and then you know, she starts doing her job, making conversation, telling me what she is doing...and then...
"so do you prefer men or women??"
wait what? did you seriously just ask me that while rubbing your fingers in a circular motion around my nipples? wait, come again?
the question was also on the initial questionnaire i had to fill out (with a check mark right next to MEN). which i definitely found a little weird - had they not changed their question sheet since the 1980s? but anyway...
what a weird time to ask me. and before i could even answer her -
"you know, because you don't want the pap smear, is it because you think girls cant transmit disease to other girls? so you don't think you have anything to worry about?" she continued...
"i just don't want to take my pants off today..." actually, i said it more like, "i just don't want to take my pants off today??"
and that was pretty much it. she told me next time we should do the "thing i didn't want to do". i said, "oh definitely."
there really wont be a next time though. not anytime soon at least...
so yeah. worst fucking idea? new doctors. did i mention she is also my mom and dad's doctor? i dont think i can talk to her either...
BTW, she is a good doctor, i just make every situation more and more awkward with my horrible interpretations of the world around me. please don't sue me doc!